So...yesterday was the FIRST time that I ever tasted pie! Yeah. I know. I'm weird right??? Yeah. Well it was apple and I love the crust! It was my favorite part! I decided it was time that I should try it rather than hate it and loathe it forever. It turned out to be tons better than I originally thought.

It's not my favorite dessert in the world, but I can stand it. Chocolate ice cream is my favorite! Always will be!

Let me tell you, if you ever get on my bad side or make me upset or anything, get me chocolate ice cream and you will make me the most happiest person in the world... Chocolate ice cream is the way to my heart! :)

So the other night, I completed my college application for Purdue University!!! Woohoo! It was so much fun! No really! I had fun!!! :)

So to the request of my darling friend, Camille, here is my essay that I wrote...

The prompt was: You have just fulfilled your lifelong career and are now about to start your autobiography. Share the title and introduction.

A Modern Fairytale Intertwined with Reality

A dream that comes true; that’s all I ever wanted. I wanted that happy ending that make your eyes swell with tears of joy. The ending where you jump up and down with enthusiasm and yell over and over again, “I did it!” And you know what? I got it. I got my fairytale ending. I accomplished my goals and made my dreams and wishes become a reality. Although, I have to admit, the plot of my life didn’t compare to the well-known Cinderella story. I faced my own trials and tribulations along the way without the wave of a magical wand to save me from a situation of desperation. I faced experiences that altered my life. I challenged myself through my doubts and questions unanswered. Should I continue on this path of education of which I have chosen? Should I stay true to my faith, my beliefs? What are my values? My standards? But the question that kept itself in the front of my mind and never left was the question that no young woman is willing to answer immediately, without hesitation. Have I been deceiving myself and living a lie? Or do I have self-confidence somewhere within me? Throughout my life, each and every one of these questions haunted me, as they should. I was entering new territory everyday that felt foreign to my recurring habits and natural instincts. As I continued to progress and learn everyday, I began to ask myself a new question that overlapped the fear and fright. From that point on, I examined each of my experiences using this question as my guideline for success and achievements. When times came upon me I would ask, am I ready to blossom?

So today, I possibly made a big mistake and upset one of my friends. Now because of it, I feel guilty and therefore, my body went into shut down mode...

I don't want to eat and I don't really want to do anything else. Yep. Shut down mode.....

Obsessions

Can people tell when they are obsessed over something??? Or do they remain oblivious to the fact...

Here at Maeser, there is an addiction that is occurring within the school's very walls..... It is called

THE STOCK MARKET GAME!!!

It has taken control of so many minds, including mine. The competition of gaining the most amount of money, to triumph over your rivals also participating, to feel that satisfaction of watching your money (although it is pretend...) and seeing it grow before your very eyes within the matter of a few seconds. Nothing is more compelling.

This controlling operative has taken over the minds of so many students. Some are deeper into it than others. Those students are the ones who want that moment of glory in saying, "I am first. You are not. You will never win. So you're gonna try? Bring it on." But is there such a thing as being too obsessed.

This game is not all fun. The stress and pressure of keeping your amount of money out of the gutter is tiring and overwhelming. Many have given up because of it. Especially since we are Maeser students here and receive enough homework already, the added pressure of a game takes its tolls on many. When the semester is over, will those who have become obsessed be able to let go??? Or will they go through deprivation and disastrous consequences??? I guess we will find out eventually... The end of the semester is approaching in the matter of a few weeks. Lets see if those who were strong before this game can conquer the game, in their own mind, and rise above it...

How have I come this far in high school? Only yesterday I was a freshman striving to find a place in the "bowling alley". I now am a senior with college applications in my hands and scholarships on my mind. But to be quite honest, my world  is falling apart...

This past week I have had to do one of the hardest things that I have ever done in the past five years. I was forced to block my Uncle Jack and Aunt Danielle on Facebook. My Uncle Jack I can easily block. He has his own issues. My Aunt Danielle on the other hand, has been like my second mom for the longest time. She helped raise me during the summers my mom shipped me to Utah. She helped me learn so many different things that has influenced who I am today. Nothing tortured me more than clicking that last button that would finalize my decision. My heart was pounding so loud that it created a beat to a song of depression. But I did it. It's over now. They are out of my life and my mom believes they can no longer injure me on the one place that was to connect me with the ones I love.

To be honest, I cried. Even before I did that last click.  I cried so much that questions began to go through my mind. I questioned whether my  mom was right. I questioned whether or not I should obey the commandment to obey my mom. I questioned everything relevant to the subject and only one answer came to my mind. I had to do it. No other response came to me. I knew what I had been taught. I knew that the gospel was true. I could never deny it. I knew that when I received a straight forward answer, I had to follow through with it. It's what I've been taught. It's what I have grown to experience and come to realize in my heart.

Nothing will change my mind. Maybe, someday, this situation will work out and I will be able to click the one link that will reunite me and my aunt, "Unblock". Until that day, I will remain steadfast in my decision and remain true to what I know today.